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Footprints in the Sand

One night I had a dream --
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and
Across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand;
One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before us,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life
This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
You would walk with me all the way;
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,
There is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why in times when I
needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious
child. I love you, and I would never,
never leave you during your times of
trial and suffering.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."
by Mary Stevenson

i must be mad...i keep takin him back and the same thing keeps happenin over and over again..and because hes moods swings r so bad i found myself callin round every1 2 borrow money 2 giv 2 him so he can have hes friggin joint.. this is not gonna change!!why am i still in this situation?when its good its great but recently there hasnt been many of those and even now we r in separate rooms not talkin 2 each other..wot sort of relationship is that! i think i am seriously bonkers now and i cant blame him no more as it has now gone 2 being my fault, ARGHHH!!